"Waiting In Vain" by Bob Marley

"I dont want to WAIT IN VAIN for your love."

The song of artist Bob Marley "waiting in vain has an explendid story in which it talks about he does not want to wait in vain for this lady even though he already had been waiting for a long time since the first time he saw her like love at first sight. He mentions "so don't treat me like a pupet on a string." reffering that he does not want to be treated like a toy or probably manipulated. He talk about waiting for three years and he is knocking on her door.



this can be an example of a love story with no happy ending probably because it says how he does not wants to end up alone.another song that I deeply enjoy is "soo much trouble in the world," or "natural mistic."

Wrong decision

The day of November 27th, 2012 around 7:30 and 8:30pm I was at my house with my younger brother Hector and my cousin Omar. Hector is 17 years old and Omar is 16 years old. That day we were in the house just sitting down having a little fun messing around with each other until I recieved something through a post that I could not believe (I got expossed and blame for something that I have not known or even commited like they say I did). After I saw the post I did not believe it until people started saying this offensive thoughts in opinions to the post from that page. I tried fixing it but people kept on bullying, harrasing me and actually believing it. I got so angry I never felt so much anger and fury in my body and head I felt like if I was going to explode.I had way to many problems and I still do. I got so tired of all the bullshit and I did not know how to take my anger out, so  I gave some head-butts to the walls and punched it, but the anger kept on getting immense. I got tired of all the things that had been perturbing me all my dawm life; so I decided to take my own life away. I changed my clothes instantly to head out to the bank and to the store. Hector and Omar walked with me to the bank , and I got all the money that I had in my bank account. I gave most of the money to hector and I just kept a little portion enough to buy aspirins. I went to target and I took a bottle of 40 tablets of aspirins and a monster, I paid and went back home with my brother and cousin. I really was looking forward into doing it I was not reggreting the choice I made. while we were walking I told my brother to respect my mother and to help her instead of giving her more shit to worry about.

After we arrived the house I went to the back yard where there is some old abandon boat that the owner left there. I told Hector and Omar to stay in the room as I went to the boat. I went inside one of the boats and opened the little bottle of aspirins. I started drinking hand fulls of pills and drinking the monster at the same time. I did not feel any effect just the adrenaline going through my body, so I told hector to get me another bottle. He could not refuse( because I am the older brother and it was my choice to do it), so he went. then my neighbor came his name is Christian he is 17 years old. We started chatting and he knew why I was doing it. He actually took care of me for most of the time until my brother came back from the store and he handed me the other bottle and a monster. I went back to the boat and continued drinking the pills as I drank them I started getting nausea, dizziness and I heard a loud ringing in my ears. That is when I knew that it was actually working. I felt it going through my veins. by 9:30pm I had drank all of the pills and the two monsters. A while later I felt so much abdominal pain that I could not handle. I began to throw out all the liquid that I drank(monster that I drank and I got more and more dizzy. Nausea was heavily in my body. The tremendous pain all over my body that had me suffering. I remember being at the top of the boat and then waking up with my left cheek on the ground. I was wearing a white tank top and gray pants. I began to walk towards the house but I felt like if my foots were really heavy I tried as hard as I could to get to the front door.When I got to the house I began to call my cousin's name, as he woke up he asked me "What is wrong with you? What happened? Are you ok?" My only response was "just call the ambulance". He dialed 911( instead of calling poison control), a couple minutes later a cop arrived the house and he stared at me like if I was a delinquent and he asked me so many random questions like "have you consumed any drugs lately? Have you been drinking? Are you ok? Can you get up? and I responded to him "I got an overdose".... I began to throw up and he saw that I was not lying and he pick me up from my arm and help me walk to the front of the house. The ambulance arrived as soon as we got to the front part of the house.

The ambulance hurried through the streets to take me to the hospital. The hospital that I got taken to was Paradise Valley Hospital in National City. I was in the emergency room.I was gaven so many medicine, liquids and tubes going in to my veins. The doctors made me drink about two cups of charcoal it was so nadsty but i had to take it in order to get well. I arrived the hospital arround 2:10am and I could not stop hearing the ringing in my ears I did not feel like I was ok. hours later they changed me from the room i was located at to ICU(Intensive Care Unit). I spent 4 days in there then I got transfered to another room where I was more confortable. Soon my mother arrived to the hospital so i could leave, but before leaving I had to talk to a Psychiatrist. He asked me things that I knew what he was trying to do. He taked to my mother too, and she told him that my only concern was that if I did harm to myself what if someone try to do it to me. He responded that what they had done to me was a crime and what I did is a crime too. But he knew that I had my reasons even though I was the wrong decision to take, but i dont reggret doing it what i do reggret is that it did not work, doing it in vain.........

Even though I feel isolated I preffer staying this way so I dont have to deal with more problems like gossip and drama or even personal problems like financial, domestic, and the enviroment can have a big effect in your life too . please if anyone reads this admire who you are because there is no one going to stand next to you but yourself.


I have learned a leason, that death should be done by its way not ours. Is going to happen when it has to happen. And now I have two fears that I can use them as my priorities. The first one is that I am feared to fail. The second one is that no matter what happens giving up is not an potion!

why do we often blame other people for our own mistakes?

Well this question can have two sides or stories like, for instance a parent of a young student blaming the teacher fo the lack of learning in his child. You can not really blame the teacher with out hte right evidence, because you do not know if there is something going on with the student like if he is being perturbated in school or in the house.                                 

But there are different reason many reasons why, like thje teacher may have the fault too. There can be a lack in the teaching of the person in charge of doing that or lazyness too! So what can be done in this cases? A replacement of that teacher can be good, but most of the time it would be better just ot evade that reason and find a more accurate way to work with the kid. This can disturb a child easily because everything they see they learn and seeing a teacher giving this kind of example can teach the alumn to be lazzy too.

Many cases there is a disability intervening in a child's development such as Dyslexia(reading disorder in which they mix the letters and confuse them with each other), there can be some disturbance in the kids mind which makes him or her agressive and isolated and that can be bad because that can affect the student's future.

"If a kid is struggling, the school should provide extra support. If they fail to respond, they should qualify for special education services. The purpose is to get kids the help they need sooner and not make it so they fall so far behind that they can't catch up."

William Joseph Barbaresi, MD, associate chief, Division of Developmental Medicine, Boston Chidren's Hospital

Harrassment and Bullying can have an immense role at school too. And the way the student often act afraid or angry because of the path of violence they got to go through every day. Most of the time adults do not notice when this is happening, therefore it has to be a way to help the bullied as the bullies too, because they are both victims of it. I know you might be "why the bullies too?" Because the bullies has their reasons why they act towards other students in a agressive way. Bullies often act this way because they want or need attention from others, or it may come from the family members that act aggressive, loud, always shouting in their own home; making the student think that it is appropriate to do it any where. I personally think that kids who bully are victims as well, because they are being affected by something that makes them express themselves in that way, and instead of just looking at them as the "bad kids" we should help them to understand and find the way to stop this the best way. Nor making this kids more struggles for their futere life.

All these have a reason why! And it is up to us to fix it.

Remembering all the boys

In the video "remembering all the boys", which we saw in the English class by Professor Aronson, the narrator talks about how she lost her brother because he was gang related(the blues), and how even though he died by his enemies(the reds) she still respects the cause of the other kids that surround him,which they were his enemies. She shares the same pain towards those other absent kids becausse she knows what it feels like to loose a family member.



Elvia Bautista.



We do not want to end up in the same spot as every one without making somethig of our lives.

This Narration of "remembering all the boys" makes me think about me and my life, because i've been gang related, I have been shot at, I have been around drugs, I have done stealing, and worst of all I knew what
I was doing and that it was wrong; I have homies in the graveyard and I know what it feels to loose a homie that fought for the same reason that I did, We don not really fight for a piece of land that it is not ours like people say, what we actually fight for is resect and love for what we started like a last name or something that truthly represents us as a family. But at last most of them end up in the same places and one of them is 6 feet underground in a wood box; Or in jail too.

It is incredible what she does for the other kids that died for that too; she does it because she knows what it feels like to loose someone for the reason of being born in the ghetto, with a family with those bad habits, gang related, or perhaps say in the wrong side of the city. mostly of the time kids join gangs because of something that broke their lives in a very early and sensible stage and age. I think that is funny how we all fight for decades because we can not be together or see each other as a gang member but as soon as we die we end up probably next to each other.

Aqueous Profile

     This image tell the viewer that beauty can be created by anything, and it does not not matter what kind of compound is created by if it is solid, liquid, or even gas. this image shows beauty in a pecular way that catches very hard the viewer's eye, even though it seems simple it is still amazing that this can be created by human hands(technologically).

"Reaction of beautifully."

   The first thing that catch the viewer's eye is the water thrown across the left side of the picture to the right side causing an image to appear like a human face, the color of the water is common as the simple water which is transparent, There is a background color gray the mid part from top to bottom there is a bloom of light across the background. It seems like if the face looking water is facing the right side showing no expression. You can perfectly see the details like the face, the forhead, nose , lips, eyebrows, cheeks, neck amd eyeballs coming out  out of the spplatered water. it looks exactly like a dummy's face.

  I say this because the water seems like if it was floating from one side to the other, and causing the air bend this figure and engender this dummy's face like while is on the air with perfect rigor and precision that it looks almost incredible and impossible to create.It looks so amazing and beautiful impossible to believe that this image can be created by just that simple , but maybe it has been done by compuratized technology to catch the attention of the people who have observed and get shocked or amazed by this picture that is possibly being used as an advertizement.

   This idea is important because itr can be a reflection towards what people can create or nature itself in this world with it its own purpose. And it is not impossible, it can be scientific or artificial but it is still amazing to see something like this because in the past generation nobody saw something like this created. this can be a good motivation towards what a person can do by itslef and create things that can amaze the humans with a simple thing like that.

Expressions

       I have been noticing something similar in the bloggers is that everybody is talking about failure, and especially on famous persons.They are not going in deeper than what they should? most of them are talking about failure and not really expressing what the truth is or the best realistic way to see failure is.

I find this hard to do but come on now it is not hard to show your own believes, ideas thoughts and feeling coming from a deeper state of mind. I can not really say that is not hard for me because it is not easy either, but we should put attention to what we write and express what we feel and think with interest because if we dont have an interest in what we are sopposed to do we are not getting anywhere and all we are doing is in vain.



Motivation as a role model.



Having a belive can really have a strong motivation on your side, and is just like building up a house; you can not start building without the tools right?

"When you find things that can be done, your mind finds ways to get it done." Wise words from -Dr. David Schwartz












 I But what I find most interesting is how everybody is talking about the same thing famous failures, it all says the same about how failure has a big impact in yourselve's success! But i found that irrelevant, because you might learn from your mistakes but how is failing going to get you to where you want to be in life, for example failing your college classes, is that going to get you a successful life, i dont think so that is whythink that there is other reasons that get you to where you want to be in your life like dedication, pursue, intelligence, Interest, motivation, and positive thinking; dont let other things like failure ruin what once you have started. Thinking has a big role in your life and perseverance so it does too.

What Motivates Us?

            Well at First, what I think that motivates me primarily is my values and positive things in my life. But other people might get motivated by their own future. Desire has a big effect on your motivation like a head start; in order to get something you need to feel the desire in order to actually want that something and have a reason why you want it. Values is very important too, everybody has values such as family, money, passion, a job, or even just thinking about the future, and all of these may fit on my values because I focus in all this things that is what motivates me.




Motivation needs some desire in order to achieve that challenge or dream. 


Motivation is the activation of goal-oriented behavior. In other words, it is the REASON which gives direction to an action.

 "People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily." That's true, motivation is temporary and that's the reason why we need to make it a lifestyle.
                       By: Zig Ziglar

            "I feel like life fell me down." That is not a good scuse to just leave something that you have done for so long or you enjoyed so much, unless is something with bad reaction in your life and it is not worth living with. Or maybe it can be the enviroment that you are surrounded by, it can include bad influences and wrong thinking, but it is always good to be reasoning to see what is that thing that is holding you from doing what you love to do, probably the need of motivation and this word comes from the meaning of  the feeling of efficacy.

Improvement by being in combined classes

       

       Sharing two classes that are different but somehow used for the same subject which is English maybe really helpful for some students from San Diego City College; and for me is really useful because it teaches me two different sides of English which are writing and reading. 

Reading is like understanding, and writing is like expressing.

I can easily learn in a more effective way, and it makes me feel more comfortable and secure in this classes, because the teachers understand themselves and their techniques that they use for the individual classes.

"I do not understand what the teachers are trying to say".

        the techniques they use makes me feel comfortable, Because I can understand the point of view from the reader and the writer which it might be hard to understand, But even though i like it some student may not like this way of learning because the amount of homework they are given or other things with out importance. Every student have a different way of learning.

         "How I felt on my first weeks of school in this classes".

     

     But even though the idea of starting community college at San Diego made me really exited I was immensely nervous because having to meet new people makes me really shy and especially having to coexist with them made me turn into a defensive status, which is greatly awkward  and the reason is because I was not the only student feeling like that there was a big percentage of freshman in this school. So I did not think about the other students at any time till now I am realizing that we were all new to this environment.       



Soo, What Emotions come to your mind and what are the reactions that YOU take whn it's a new starting in your life? Because it can be extraordinary good and sometimes horrifying to others it all dep-ends in your mentality that you carry.

     

  

Addictions as it is